Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Don't Be Sore, Farmer John



I've diagnosed myself. After months of doctors, therapists, friends and a few too many glasses of wine I've figured it all out. I burned out: mentally, physically, emotionally. I needed a step back to look at what was most important to me, to acknowledge that I'm still young and have the rest of my life to be successful, and start reevaluating myself inside and out.

I stopped eating wheat.

It's funny how it took 24 years for a doctor to actually diagnose me with a food allergy, considering I've gone to doctors for my entire life and even more specialists than I care to count. The rashes, the exhaustion, swelling of my fingers and lips...it all came down to the fact that for an undetermined length of time, my body actually rejected what I unknowingly ate on a daily basis. It's been almost six months now living a gluten-free, dairy-free lifestyle. I can't say it's always easy (I am a New Yorker after all...pizza, bagels, etc) but the pros most definitely outweigh the cons. And because of this, I've started cooking more, finding new recipes and being very conscious of what I am consuming, food and other things alike. But please, I'm still a novice, so feel free to share any tips/recipes in the comments.

I've started to enjoy music.

It's hard to believe that it was over five years ago that I started Underrated at the young age of 19. A friend of mine who I've known since that very beginning told me that I started too young. I never really thought about it that way, but it has infact shed light on why I started to become so jaded towards the end. I burned out. For so long I had engrossed myself in this "music scene"—it was both my personal and my professional life and there was no start or end to the constant craziness it contains.

In short, I stopped having fun.

It's been four months since I quit CMJ and now I work in a completely unrelated field in a job I happen to quite enjoy. When the day is over, I don't think too much about my profession, instead I have the pleasure of unwinding, relaxing, and finding solace in the company I keep. But since most of the company I do keep happens to still be involved in the music industry, I now have an opportunity of being on the outside looking in.

And I quite like the view from here.

The past couple week's I've attended shows as a fan, that person inside of me that got into this whole mess at the very beginning. I've danced and sang along without worrying of who I am impressing, smiling from ear to ear in the mere revelation that this is what I actually enjoy. I questioned that too many times, I think, and now I'm more sure than ever. I love music. But I don't like the music industry, that's for sure.

Tuesday night I found myself at Pianos, a place where I've spent oh so many Tuesday nights before. But this week I felt as if I had a weight lifted off my shoulder. And I happened to catch a set but the wonderful Tereu Tereu who were exactly what I needed to experience—catchy melodies, bouncing rhythm, and a hell of a live show.

It feels good to be back.

8 Comments:

katie said...

i'm not remotely kidding when i say that this post made me tear up a little. and reminded me why you should continue to write.

magickat said...

I'm glad you are back and feeling better. You are a great writer and I've missed your posts! Glad you are feeling on the mend and getting back on track emotionally, mentally, etc etc.

piers said...

Hey, don't kick yourself too hard, either -- I've had wheat and dairy allergies since day one, but of course, during my late teens/early twenties, I lived on pizza and, well, crap food, and it caught up with me... it isn't worth it, but it's hard to remember that sometimes.

Glad you're feeling better - stay that way!

Cheers,
Piers

p.s. my wife's grammy sent us a really good wheat-free recipe book - with lots of glossy photos so you can get excited about the food - I'll drop you a line when I have it handy to get the author's name. Lots of recipes with quinoa, which is way more fun than rice.

Shannon said...

So I would feel bad, completely ignoring your post, to tell you about a band you might like, which was my plan.

But I'm glad that you feel better and everything, and I've never actually commented on your posts, but I do visit your site often.

Just so you know, this was a great post, it even made me feel better, a little changed.

Anyway, here is the band:

Alex and the Anders

MusicAndArtsBlog said...

are you allergic to wheat? all these people on the atkins diet and stuff, but i don't think wheat is that bad, the worst stuff is processed foot, red meat, nasty dairy, and all that. Anyway the music scene is a very unhealthy enviornment, any successful musician will tell you that, hang in there homie

MusicAndArtsBlog said...

these revalations about the music scene need to be shouted from the mountain!! so many piggies! but now their actually masquerading as something else, so much smoke and mirrors. people need to focus on the whole package, like the burning man philosophy, art, performance, in addition to the rockstars up there getting worshiped like golden gods

~JohNnyIchi~ said...

you sure have a great post and writings..keep up the good work!

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